Shaquil.23.New Yorker.Jersey Raised Me.Focus.Determination.Hunger.The three keys to unlocking the door of success.[Follow me & I'll follow you back]
I’ve been single for a good 8 months(that 1 month relationship wasn’t shit), and I still don’t feel like I’m over it like I should be. I’m convinced that was my first time in love because it’s never been that real or hurt this much to not have that person by my side anymore. I know that they say time heals all wounds but how much longer do I have to feel like this? How much longer do I have to give half hearted effort in relationships? I’ve never been this careless when it comes to females and I haven’t got the slightest clue on how to stop it. I can’t listen to 90% of R&B without thinking of her, can’t look at my mom’s car without seeing that dent in the hood from the night I realized it was over. Love makes you do some crazy shit and you’d think after all this I’d want nothing to do with love but it’s actually quite the opposite, I miss love now more than ever. I miss that feeling of security, of knowing that regardless of what I’m going through I can count on someone. I miss having someone I can argue with but can’t bring myself to stay mad at them for more than 5 minutes. I even miss the little things like sharing my blanket or watching shows on Netflix and eating cookie dough with someone. Love was good to me for 3 years but I wasn’t appreciative so I deserve life without love right now, I just wish love would give me another chance because I’ve learned from my mistakes and I know that whoever gives me their heart I know I’d do whatever it takes to hold onto it.
Go on ANON and tell me what you think of me. I do not want to know who it is, at all. Don’t tell me who it is, don’t give me hints, don’t say your screen name. Tell me exactly what you think of me. Don’t sugarcoat things. Don’t lie. If you hate me, tell me why. Tell me what I’m doing wrong. If you like me, tell me why. Tell me exactly what you think of me.